Sunday, July 12, 2009

God's Will or bust?

Yesterday, the beginning of one of my dreams since I was little started to come to life. Its not there yet, but it is in the process of it.

I started training for a volunteer Search and Rescue team in Habersham County.

Its not important how I got to do this, if you really want to know, then let me know and I can tell you. But, what the neat thing is, is the fact that this has always been kind of one of my dreams to do. I love being outside, climbing, and helping people and I have always thought to combine these would be so stinkin awesome.

And, I have come to find out that it is.

What's neat, is I am still able to be committed to all my ministry and school endeavors while doing this, which is primetime awesomeness.

When the opportunity presented itself, I was kinda hesitant, because I was not sure whether or not I should do it, because I am not that great of a climber, and I am not a very strong kind of person, so to be honest, I was bit intimidated and almost did not do it. I am so glad that I did. The moment came, I saw it, and I seized it, despite my nervousness or uncertainty of my ability to do it well.

I have got quite a bit of training ahead of me, but I am so stoked about that future training. I can not wait for it.

This summer has been one of reaping fruit from seized moments. Some fun and awesome, others not so fun and awesome, but rather difficult and tough.

Sometimes seizing a moment isn't always what you want it to be but rather, something you know is right. That you know is for the good. Ya know? You see it is so easy to seize a moment when it is good for you and of course its God's will. But the moment that you need to seize a moment and its not so fun, it makes you uncomfortable, and you question it, it can't be God's will. Right? I mean I think that all the time. Basically what I am saying is this:

It is easy to pray for God's will when you want his will, but when you dont want his will for that time in your life, its not so easy to pray for it.
Its a tough thing to live out.

God's will or bust.

Its so easy to pray for God's will, but when it comes time to live out His will for my life, its sooo stinking hard. Sometimes, so hard that I convince myself that it is not God's will.

Difficulty does not equal an absence of God.

But, there is sweet times ahead. For instance, I am trying to get a college ministry going up in Toccoa, GA at this awesome church Foothills Community Church. Its so weird to be away from 12Stone but I know that I am growing SO much as a result. I really miss home, but being away from home has a way of teaching me that I can not describe. I am learning through the hard, fun, and sad.

This college ministry excites me so much. God has his hand over it, some of the things that are happening already are just indicators of God's favor of this. He is putting together a team of people that are just incredible.

No one is doing this well in Toccoa.

No one.

We hope to change that.

Again, ministry has always been my number one dream in life, and whether I am just here for the summer to get this thing launched or what, I do not regret this summer one bit. Hopefully God will do something through this, and I alread know he has done a ton in my own life as a result of it.

So, in the midst of seizing moments we find God's heart for our lives.

Keep Trekking