Friday, December 21, 2007

Broken down car

Have you ever wondered why school is such a long process?
I mean, I am 20 years old and have two years left of school. My whole life has revolved around one thing. School.
School is such a buzzkill. Although I am in my fifteenth year of school, these upcoming two years seem like they are going to take forever to be done with.
I want to be done.

It is almost like I have been sitting on the side of the road with a broken down car this entire time. Although it only takes a couple hours to get towed... it seems like eternity. So, here I am sitting on the ground with my back leaning against my car. waiting.

But, what am I waiting for?

I want to get out of school so I can do things that I cant do while in school. Yet, when I get out of school there are things I want to do that are going to prevent me from doing the things that I want to do when I get out of school. Make sense?

All I am trying to say is that I am standing at the crossroads of several paths. Knowing that when I start walking down one of those paths, its going to be close to impossible to walk another one of those paths. Maybe I could walk to the end of one of the paths and start another one...? That would be nice.

I do know one thing. I am going to choose. I am going to choose a path and when I do, I am going to stick to it. The curse of our generation is standing at the crossroads wondering what each path is like. Then if lucky when we choose a path, and it becomes mundane so to speak, we turn around and head back to the infamous crossroads that we know all too well.

In the Old Testament in the book of Jeremiah, Jeremiah says, " stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it..." (6:16)

Notice two things.
1. He says "ask". Meaning pray. And pray dangerously. One thing I have been noticing about when the disciples prayed in the New testament is that they never beat around the bush. They prayed with authority, knowing God was with them. Read the book of Acts, and you will know what I am talkin about.

2. He says "walk in it." Walking requires movement, just in case you did not know that. He never says, "stand at the crossroads and stare, and wonder"

Getting back to the broken down car... Maybe instead of waiting for the tow truck, I should stand up and start walking. Maybe the fix to my "car" is my walking instead of wondering.

I dont want to be known as the guy with huge dreams. I want to be a man known by action.